Dear Diary; Innocence to Wisdom to Innocence

Another sunny Sunday outing…

The miles flowed by in our land of parks and pelicans; statues, people, guards guarding a palace….

All familiar now, but oh how new and delightful in each moment…

Through St James park across the Mall and up the steps we ran… The Duke of York column reaching skyward above us several houses high, surveying the scene for decade after decade…

He’s been standing there since 1834

Onwards up Regents street turning left into Piccadilly… As we were approaching St James Church we heard the words of a minister talking about Christ…

A service happening outdoors… We stopped and stood looking inwards from behind the gates, listening to his soothing voice talking about Jesus; dying so that we might have everlasting life.

He held up the bread and the wine, symbols of the body and blood of Christ, to consecrate them…

And I was immediately transported to the years I spent in church listening to these familiar words and partaking in this same ritual…

He invited us all to say the Lord’s prayer together and so Anadi and I repeated with the assembly gathered inside the gates…

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory,
for ever and ever world without end
Amen.

And as I recited these words, tears arose within me… I know not why? Perhaps memories surfacing and clearing of days gone by…

And on we ran… 

Under the arch at Hyde park corner – a the stream of traffic all around… Another memory flashed of days gone past…

Me cycling around here on my 21st birthday… (much less traffic then!) I’d journeyed on two wheels  – with only 3 gears (in those days!) – some 50 or 60 miles  from my home in Headley to meet some friends in Hyde Park…

Running onwards we reached our breakfast and coffee stop in the Duke of York square, and I stopped to buy a big issue – the vendor engaged us in conversation… He asked how far we had run…

He then told us that he too had been a runner when he was in the army, and so we shared running times and the joy of running for miles.

Time to think he volunteered… I’m in recovery he added; and I feel the fittest I have felt in 30 years… I’d like to run a marathon, or at least walk one…

When we set off on our life journey we were so innocent and unaware of what a huge undertaking this journey would be; the difficulties, the sadnesses and pain we would encounter along the way – as well as the delights and joy and fun too of course….

But it is often through the hardships that our lessons are learned…

The wisdom gained of life lived.

And then can come about a return to the innocence of the child within us, with the experience, the wisdom through the learning etched now within us…

And from this place – whenever in our lifetime we arrive there (maybe many times!) – we can set off once more with the enthusiasm of when we first began….

Dear Diary; A Never Ending Dialogue

‘Pelicans have a wingspan second only to the condor’, he said.

He was standing just near where Anadi and I had stopped on our run to look at the Pelicans in the Park – St James Park – and he’d been listening, and laughing as I recited ‘The Pelican poem…’

Eyes of blue; a camera around his neck

‘In about two months they will be completely pink’, he added…

‘There is one who is more intelligent than the rest, she’s really inquisitive, she keeps escaping and going off on her own adventures’…

I told him about the vision of pink I encountered ‘somewhere in Spain’ as I made my way barefoot from one end of the country to the other.

I had come over the brow of a hill, a huge lake lay to my right and there I saw an array of pink – “a brief”, “ a pod”, “ a pouch”, “ a scoop”,  “ a squadron” of pelicans! 

‘You’re brave’ he commented, pointing to my feet, as we crossed the road near Leicester Square Tube station… He was settled in a doorway, looking quite relaxed in the sun, a coffee in his hand. His belongings in a bag beside him.

‘Would you like some money?’ I asked, ‘no, I don’t take any cash – I drink and smoke’, he added as way of explanation; ‘So I don’t take cash’.

‘How do you live?’ I asked… ‘People buy me food’; he proffered his coffee, ‘I get by’.

‘Would you like some food then’? I asked…‘A croissant would be nice’ he replied

‘What flavour?’

‘Almond…’

‘My favourite’, I said…

We stopped near the end of our run at Pret for a ‘nearly end of run coffee and a cookie to share’… 

‘My African sister’ Akim, our new friend there, called out as we entered… And then as we approached the counter, he turned to his supervisor… ‘Guess where she was born?Africa’, he answered before she had time to guess – ‘“The” Africa where I was born… She is my African sister’.

He gave us an extra cookie on the house, and we sat in the sun in our improvised outdoor cafe in front of Saatchi Gallery…

My feet felt strong today, the terrain easy… Sometimes they are more sensitive than others, today everything felt easy. I felt strong relaxed and the miles floated by.

Conversations on the run.

The space between.

Twisting and weaving, creating new things, ideas and dreams full of colour and magic,  manifesting in the space between, the tapestry of life.

Our worlds expand or are limited by the amount of conversations we are open to.

Airports, taxis, shops, restaurants, on the street…

A never ending dialogue